So if you follow me on twitter, if you don't you should @Classy_In_KC, you may have seen me have a minor freak out yesterday. It was a rough day for some reason. But here's the basic gist of what went down.
There's a very pleasant boy in one of my classes that looks about my age. We got out of class early so my day was going great. As I was chatting with this boy on my way out of the building he said something about his wife.... Yes I heard him correctly, wife.
Now I know what you're thinking. You think that I must have had a major crush on this boy and finding out he's flipping married ruined it for me. But that wasn't even it. He's nice but I don't particularly want to date him. It's just that he's exactly my age and he's MARRIED!!
I'm no where near marriage, hell I don't even have a boyfriend to consider being married too! The best I got at this point is my one of my best friends that says we'll get married if we're both single at 29. He's adorable and awesome by the way but really 9 years is a long time.
So after this all went down I sort of panicked. I flipped out to my friends (one of which got married at 17... oops) about how dumb that was. Why would you want to be married right now, we're kids for heavens sake. We don't even have real jobs or houses or pay our own car insurance how could we be married.
After I was told to take deep breathes and calm the heck down by my friends I was ok.
I guess it's just scary because just over 6 months ago I had my future completely planned out. I knew exactly who I was going to marry and when and the everything else about it. Now I'm going out into the world without any sort of plan. My greatest fear is that I won't find someone that I could realistically want to be with forever and ever. It's a pretty scary thought.
But I just have to take a step back and remember I'm only 20 years old for heavens sake! And what works for others (getting married young) may not be right for me. That's ok!
Someday I will look back on this with my charming and handsome husband and laugh at how silly I was. But until then I'll just take deep breathes and blog about it to you all. :)
As Always, Stay Classy